its not 'bout the way it ought to be
and its not 'bout the way it used to be
and its not the way i want it
but given the fakt that i cant change the way it is
i dont want to miss any moment

H: so you're fucked up again!
M: yeah
H: and i dont even hate to say "i told you so"!
M: i know
H: so what is wrong with you? get over it . beleave it!
M: but i can't
H: i know because you're weak.
M: i'm tryin' so hard but i think i cant get rid of it. it's an emotion
and its hard to get rid of a desire
H: so what. you're weak and a loose fuck up.
M: why do you do that to me?!
H: 'cause thats what you deserve.
M: yes, but why? and how come you know that? And why should i
beleave you?
H: stop foolin' around. You want, no better: you need to beleave. I
dont know why. But I know that this is what you deserve as
shure as i know that you don't deserve them and there is no reason
why they should have to live with you or waste time on you.
M: but how can that be? What did i do? Whats my failure?
H: this won't get any further. resign the fact.
M: i can't. and to be honest i don't want to!
H: but you have to 'cause you're shit.
M: no i'm not.
H: yes you are. Think about the past, take responability for your
aktions.
M: which aktions? What have i done?
H: i dont know. but you do.
M: no i don't!
H: so why am i here and how come you beleave me?
M: i aint got a clue.
H: because you want me. You need me.
M: i know, but why?
H: i dont give a shit. and the pain you feel is what you deserve.
and stop to cut yourself its just you and me. No one else. they
don't need to see.
M: fuck you
H: what ever. you're getting agressiv.
M: yes i do and if it would be possible I'd beat the shit out of you.
but thats what you're feedin on